Turn off the lights when you leave

Im glad at times when your feeling down and blue you can at least talk to your friends and say to them "hey at least i got you guys" but i can't. My "friend" pj fould it halarious pouring my heart to him, laughing at me AND he had me on loudspeaker, some guys thaught it was funny but PJs friend Lauren was the only nice one. I phoned Andrew M as well, no "im sorry" or "that sucks" from him,but just another "haha" i didn't think they would do that, i phoned them to talk to them and they give me that shit.I'd be there for them if they needed to chat, but i guess their immature. I left a message on Antonis phone, no doubt i'll be able to hear him laughing from Poland at my misfortunes soon enough.

I phoned pj back, he was at Laurens house. I now believe pj, lauren is just a friend. She had a bf..she says pjs just a friend. Shes actually really nice, she was a laugh and actually listened to me unlike PJ, she summed it up when she said "basically..all nice guys finish last", so after an hour of talking to my friend i decided to take myself off to bed feeling still preety low..but i decided to make myself a drink..well..fuck it, my mums out..ill take the vodka instead. I lied in my mums double bed (she wont be back tonight) drinking listening to my songs(my usual emotional crap) but then i spilled vodka all over my shirt and bed, so now i have to clean my sheets, im tired..not feeling too happy..great.

This is sundays post, i just can't sleep so im posting it now, ill proberlly wake up with a hang over and forget today anyway so its just as well.

I proberlly spent like £20 phoning my friends tonight, i phoned about 3 of my friends...but one wasnt there so i left some long ass message on her phone. I don't really want to go out to tesco tomorrow, at least i get to sample our new car.

Pjs friend Lauren intrigues me..how could pj know someone so nice? I know they arent going out or anything, she broke up from her boyfriend of like a year a few weeks ago. Pjs too pussy to ask her, he should. Hes like oh no we are just friends, pfft pj, your alone with her in her bedroom. Maybe it runs in our friendship group being lame at stuff :/

Im sorry for my muslim bashing post as well, if im sorry for anything else..just post what..k.
Currently listening to:Alice Cooper - Poison

Your cruel device
Your blood, like ice
One look could kill
My pain, your thrill
I want to love you but I better not
Touch (don’t touch)
I want to hold you but my senses
Tell me to stop
I want to kiss you but I want it too
Much (too much)
I want to taste you but your lips
Are venomous poison
You’re poison running through my
Veins
You’re poison, I don’t want to
Break these chains